Depression can put your life out of sync with the world. One of the most insidious things about depression is that it can make you feel like you don't deserve to be here. Depression can make you believe that the world would be a better place and that your family and friends would, indeed, be happier if you weren't in it. Fighting those feelings on your own can be near impossible.
From what I have seen in others, as well as myself, it’s pretty common that those with depression don’t like taking medication. To add salt to the wound, it can take experimentation with several medications before you find one that's a good fit for you. Different medications can range from making you feel worse, to not seeming to work at all, to feeling nothing, and finally to feeling more 'normal.'
However, for many who suffer from mild depression, medication does not have to be forever. It is just something to help you keep a clear head until you can work through the problems (with or without professional help) that cause your depression.
For those, like me, who battle chronic depression, medication is a large part of the solution to normalcy. It is a whole lot better putting up with the pills than constantly pushing back the feelings that make you wish you were gone from life.
There are several online tests that you can take for an informal gauge of your depressive state.
In preparing to write this article, I took several of them to see if they were similar to the ones I have taken at my doctor's office. It’s sort of nice now to see that I have made some progress away from the negative feelings and physical impairments that go hand in claw with depression.
I went without medication for several years thinking I knew what the problems were and I could work through them. Alas, I don’t have A Beautiful Mind. Unlike John Nash, I don’t see people or things that aren't there, but neither do I see clearly without my meds.
Bottom line is the decision— meds or no meds — will ultimately be yours, but if you are fighting your feelings, give them a try, at least until you level out. Please see your medical practitioner and take the test. If you aren’t on medication, the test will help your doctor decide if medication will help you. As you can see from the above links, there is really nothing to them.
I’ve written some other tips about my own experience with depression: What is wrong with depression?